Thursday, July 30, 2009

Drawn and quartered: Sandler bares his soul

Funny People has confirmed something that I’ve known for a very long time: Adam Sandler is marginally proud of his bird-brained, baby-voiced comedies like Billy Madison, but please don’t carve their titles onto his headstone when he dies.

Life needs more substance, he comes to learn, and substance can’t be found in silly voices and situational comedies where he adopts a kid to make picking up women easier (Big Daddy) or that one with a magic remote control that could mute out his nagging wife (Click). And, apparently, beating people senseless was counterproductive on some sort of metaphysical level.


Say what you will about Adam Sandler — and I’ve said a lot of mean, hateful things (all justified) in reviews over the years — but he bares his soul in Funny People, a movie that could easily be his life story, or swan song. In fact, the film opens with real home videos of a teenage Adam Sandler prank calling restaurants and wandering around New York City. This is pre-SNL Sandler, and he has this sparkle in his eye as he tells a restaurant manager in an elderly woman's voice that "the roast beef is really good, but it makes me go to the bathroom every time." Of course, Sandler grows up to become a megastar, which is basically the route Funny People follows. Where Sandler ends and George Simmons, the character he plays, begins is a seamless, fluid transition that is almost imperceptible. It’s a testament to Sandler’s abilities, of which he has many (Punch-Drunk Love, Reign Over Me) when he’s not chasing invisible penguins or, and I quote, “shlibby-dibby-doo gally-hoo-hoo.”

Simmons is a Hollywood comedy star whose films could easily be real Sandler vehicles, including one where he plays a man transformed into a baby with a giant adult head, and another where he plays the bumbling oceanic superhero Merman. These blockbuster films have alienated him from real comedy, especially from his roots, stand-up, where people much funnier and much more talented than him stare up at his mega-grossing comedy with bitterness and resentment — call it the Dane Cook Syndrome. Or maybe the model was really Eddie Murphy, who started raw and ended up doing kiddie comedies with talking animals and day care children.

Anyway, a funny thing happens: George gets an incurable form of blood disease. Suddenly his reign on top — alone with no wife, no children and no real happiness — doesn’t feel so glorious. In a bid to recommit himself to life, what little of it he has left, he hits the comedy circuit, calls his ex-girlfriend to apologize and begins eBaying all his unopened Hollywood freebies. Helping him through all this is Ira (Seth Rogen), an amateur comic George meets at a Los Angeles comedy club. Ira, seeing an opportunity to write for a legitimate star, jumps aboard not realizing the implications caused by George's celebrity personality
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The film’s highest priority is the salvation of George’s broken and barren soul, but the buddy-buddy relationship between Ira and George comes in a close second. They’re both commiserating Jewish comics, both playful wordsmiths and both are hopeless when it comes to women, although George is fairly good with the one-night-stands, including one who asks for the Merman call during the big show. The two comics share one key difference, though: Ira’s comedy is organically funny and George's is forced and synthetic coming from a man who no longer experiences life from the perspective of a normal person. It goes back to an old saying: Never trust a comic who arrives to the show in a limousine.

In these types of films — call them Illness Movies — it’s typical to see the dying person change for the better. Funny People abandons many of the clichés, including that one: George is still a self-centered jerk, still a pompous windbag, still a hack comedian with a bad catalog of pictures. He barks at Ira, orders him to fetch Diet Cokes, steals his potential sleeping partners and he pulls the celebrity card too frequently. But the film doesn’t apologize for his behavior. It simply exhibits it as a form of character study: Here's a man who's laughing on the outside and crying on the inside. And even that dynamic fails him in the end.


Funny People is largely about George and Ira (sadly, no Gershwin turns up), even though the rest of the cast could fill up three other comedy movies. Jonah Hill (Superbad) plays Ira’s tightly wound roommate, as does Jason Schwartzman, whose character is on one of those laugh-tracky high school sitcoms that real comedians groan at. The always-terrific Leslie Mann (Knocked Up and the director's wife) plays an ex-girlfriend who wants George back after discovering her husband (Eric Bana) is cheating on her in China, with massage therapists no less. Refreshing newcomer Aubrey Plaza plays Ira’s crush, an emotionless comedienne with a 10-day window. Oh, and the cameos, there’s plenty: Paul Reiser, Andy Dick, Norm McDonald, Eminem, Ray Romano, Sarah Silverman and Wu-Tang founder the RZA manning a deli counter.

As many people as there are, though, George is never outplayed or overwhelmed. He and Sandler are the stars, and the famous director, comedy juggernaut Judd Apatow, knows this and gives them ample time to share their stories. And as funny as it is, it’s also very mature and focused, even if there are more wiener jokes than at an Oscar Meyer stockholder’s meeting. In one scene Ira turns to James Taylor to ask if he ever gets tired of playing "Fire & Rain," to which Taylor responds to the comedian, "Well, do you ever get tired of talking about your dick?" Touche, Mr. Taylor, touche. The film is a little long at 150 minutes, but I liked that Apatow allowed his characters time to grow, or maybe just shrivel in George's case.

Funny People is a lonely, unapologetic look into a man’s deepest fears — being forgotten. Watching it you can see why funny people like Chris Farley, John Candy and John Belushi went through bouts of depression before self-medicating the solitude away. Sandler, it seems, has beaten that trend and Funny People is the proof.

Saturday, July 18, 2009

The end draws near for Potter and crew

As confusing as all the spells and magic formulas are in these Harry Potter flicks I doubt the children who flock to them in drooling packs will be as perplexed by the Horcrux spell or dragon’s blood potions as they’ll be by all the snogging in this, the sixth Potter film.

Yes, there’s lots of snogging in Half-Blood Prince, enough so that I can begin a review with it. Snogging is the cheeky British word for making out, although it sounds like it requires a cigarette afterward. Ginny Weasley snogs with Dean Thomas. Ron Weasley snogs with Lavender Brown. Hermione wishes to be snogging with Ron while Harry Potter longs to be snogging with Ginny, even as he makes tactical moves to snog with a cute waitress and then a batty Luna Lovegood. At one point Ron takes a love potion and nearly snogs nice and hard with Harry, who is clearly not so keen to snog back. And then there’s emo-king Severus Snape, who’s wound so tight he needs a good snog just to lighten up.


That’s a lot of names to hit you with so soon (and a lot of snogging, too), but by now some of those names have entered into the pop-culture lexicon and need no introduction. Han Solo, Fozzie Bear, Donald Duck, Vito Corleone, Harry Potter … some names just speak for themselves.

Aside from all the rump-slappin’ love that’s floating through the cast of characters, all the usual J.K. Rowling fantasy elements are present and accounted for: a train ride through the country to Hogwarts School of Witchcraft and Wizardry, Quidditch matches, paintings that come alive from the walls, Hagrid and his creepy pets, and a wacky new teacher, this time it’s Professor Slughorn (Jim Broadbent). Thankfully, one thing's not returrning — all the floppy homeless-looking
haircuts.

Harry Potter (Daniel Radcliffe), still reeling from the calamity of the last movie, Order of the Phoenix, is taking orders directly from an increasingly worrisome Professor Dumbledore (Michael Gambon). Voldemort and his many black-cloaked minions are still in an undeclared war with Dumbledore and Hogwarts. Many of Voldemort’s tactics are guerrilla incursions — espionage, abductions, random terrorizing, mischief. By the end of the film, war will be officially declared with a salvo that strikes at the heart of Hogwarts. I am, of course, referring to the spoiler — "______ kills ______" — those meanies (read: heroes) from the YouTube video yelled at the group of kids who had just purchased the minutes-old sixth book.

The plots, as fiendishly inventive as they are, have never really been the high points of Potter films; this one is a mystery (they all are) with Harry trying to mine the brain of Slughorn, who taught a young Voldemort at Hogwarts. What I admire over the plots are all the characters, and all the things that create the atmosphere of Potter’s world: the lavish sets, the hundreds of little magic props, those wonderful costumes and all the special effects, magic tricks of a different variety — movie magic. Many of the effects are disposable sights sprinkled into the film just because they’re so delightful, like one of a little penguin skiing in the icing on a cake.


Really, though, Harry Potter films work because the core trio — Hermione (Emma Watson), Ron Weasley (Rupert Grint) and Harry Potter — can carry a film all on their own. I truly hope these three young actors all find important roles in other films when the series ends in 2011 after a two-part Deathly Hollows, although I can’t imagine Grint as anything else but a Weasley. And I pray that Watson, now that her eighteenth birthday has passed, can escape the Internet perverts and skirt-invading paparazzi (one word Emma: "Panties") so she can concentrate on the acting talent she seems to have.

I draw attention to the trio, but it helps that the they are surrounded by a talented ensemble including Gambon as wizard Gandalf the Gray … er, Dumbledore the Gay, and Snape, played by Alan Rickman, who is my own personal cult-figure superhero. Even the extras are interesting; you’ll know Elarica Gallagher when you see her. And then there’s Potter friend Luna Lovegood (Evanna Lynch), who’s so spaced out you have to wonder if she’s naturally this silly or just stoned. I could watch a whole movie of her brushing her teeth or mowing a lawn or something even more mundane.

I must also comment on Tom Felton, the apparent long-lost son of Hulk Hogan who plays miserable little twerp Draco Malfoy. I can't remember the last time a character was so vile and venemous just by existing as a static peice of flesh in time and space. This poor kid; he'd even scowl at a wet snogging. As over-the-top as the character is — and how cruel for Felton, who perfectly delivers the same lines over and over again — I love Draco Malfoy. You gotta applaud him because his contempt for everything is refreshing.

Half-Blood Prince is not the best of the Harry Potter films, but it’s in a six-way tie with all the rest. Am I a coward for not picking a favorite? Maybe. But they’re all so fantastical and charming — and they’re all so consistently well made — that picking one favorite would betray all the other favorites.

Friday, July 10, 2009

Beholding the blast and its collision with flesh

I’m certain of several things this summer, mainly these two: First, Transformers: Revenge of the Fallen is the worst film of the decade. And second, The Hurt Locker, which is effective counter-programming for transforming robots, is the best film of the summer.

Talking with Hurt Locker star, and early Oscar contender for best actor, Jeremy Renner, he agrees with me on all these points. Except maybe that Transformers one, to which he simply says, “Hey, to each his own. Nothing against Michael Bay.”


Renner, whose claim to fame before this was playing cannibal serial killer Jeffrey Dahmer in Dahmer, plays a hotshot bomb disposal tech in Iraq in this gritty and excruciatingly intense Kathryn Bigelow (Point Break, Strange Days) war movie. I type “war movie” with some trepidation, though, because the movie is so much more: it’s an action movie, a psychological thriller and, ultimately, a character study about men drawn to the flame of what might be their own demise. Why do men go to war? This movie has that answer and many more.

Above all else, though, Renner just nails this nuanced, provocative performance of a man riding the razor’s edge that is bomb disposal in a warzone. In one scene he removes his bomb-proof protective gear so he can lay against a bomb, feel it’s mechanisms, channel its soul. “If I’m gonna die, I’m gonna die comfortably,” he says. No movie is half as intense as this one this year.


Renner, who said he is one of five actors being considered for the lead role in a Road Warrior reinvention (by Mad Max creator George Miller, no less), sat down and spoke with Volume/Pick-Up Flix before Hurt Locker opened in the Valley on July 10, and then expanded on July 17. Take mine and his word, and see this movie.
— Michael Clawson

Volume: Is America ready for movies about this war?
Jeremy Renner
: I think America’s ready for this film. Without a doubt. If we box it into saying this is a war film, we’re boxing it in unfairly. At that point there have already been preconceived notions put upon it. It’s almost unfair to say that about films, like, “Oh look here, this is a real tearjerker movie.” That’s unfair to the film because it sends viewers into it with expectations; it’s going to limit the experience. So to call this just a war movie is unfair to the viewers, especially since it’s so much more. As far as being “ready” for this film, there’s a big audience for it. This film is an immersion. You go in to experience it, to feel it. That’s how well it’s made.


Volume: War is, for the most part, a boys club. Do you think having a female director brought a fresh perspective to these types of actions scenes and also just the bonding soldiers go through?
JR
: Kathryn has always proven to be a phenomenal, detail-oriented action director. She does film male subject matter for the most part …


Volume
: There is nothing more male than Point Break.

JR
: Exactly. But her gender doesn’t come into play here because her abilities are so focused and her energy is so exact in the details. I wonder if, in her mind, she wasn’t directing a war movie, the way I was thinking I wasn’t acting in a war movie. I can’t fathom how she works, because she’s so intricate. She’s a painter, a voyeur, an artist with a camera … she’s so many things, and I never thought, “Oh and she’s a woman, too.” She’s better than that.


Volume: You’ve said the words voyeur and immersive. They must have been themes because the film was shot with dozens of cameras from dozens of different angles allowing an immersive, almost voyeuristic look at the material.
JR: The idea was to put you in those streets watching these guys diffuse bombs. There were days on set that I never saw a camera. Literally, days. We called them ninja cameras because they were on roofs, on balconies, under cars to get my feet walking past. She put her cameras in the most interesting places.

Volume
: What kinds of things did real soldiers tell you before you went into this project?

JR
: It was more me asking them questions, because they weren’t volunteering too much because they’ve never worked with actors. They learn how to make bombs and diffuse bombs for real, so dealing with some jackass actor was low on their list of priorities. I knew when I started asking good questions, though, because they told me stuff was top secret. One thing they stressed was that they would never run up to a car bomb that was on fire, which happens in the movie. Unless, of course, the president was in a nearby building or something. They’d send the bot down almost always. Some guys told me they relied on the bots so heavily that they rarely got out of their cars to take care of these roadside bombs. The soldiers I talked to did tell me about one guy who would walk up to IEDs, kick them and say things like, “Well, I guess I won,” and he’d pick the bomb up and drag it back.


Volume: As far fetched as it was, though, I felt like your character’s renegade behavior was always justified, even when he ran up to bombs on fire. He was going against the grain on everything, even his own life.
JR
: That’s a testament to how well this film was written. My character is clearly going against what he’s learned is safe, and going against all the instincts that pull people away from a bomb. He goes because he feels like he has to. He’s drawn to the danger out of necessity.


Volume
: There are no villains in this movie. No nefarious bomb-making schemers. No ex-Marine Jihadists. Nothing like that. A lesser film would have been you hunting down and killing a bomb maker rather than you and your motivations in war — call it the Hollywood version.

JR
: That makes the film more real. I mean, look at Hurt Locker: there isn’t a whole lot of plot, right? It’s just characters. A more Hollywood-type movie would have all the necessary plots and turns and developments. This film is free of all that. It moves on its own, to its own beat. It’s unrelenting.

Tuesday, June 30, 2009

Heat Part II, this time with Dillinger

Public Enemies was much better when it was called Heat.

Both films are about relentlessly organized bank robbers and their methodical police counterparts. In both there are lovely women who complicate the bank robbers’ continued success. Both are long, drawn-out examinations on police and criminal procedure, and both are directed by Michael Mann, one of the most underrated directors in the business.


Similarities aside, though, Mann’s new movie is hardly self-plagiarism — Public Enemies moves to its own rhythm — even if it is awful similar to 1995’s Heat, a movie that used atmosphere and mood to evoke a bank robber’s unceasing paranoia of capture, or just loneliness. Maybe Mann (Miami Vice, The Insider, Ali) was channeling John Dillinger while directing Heat, and now here he is telling Dillinger’s story in a film he couldn’t have foreseen 14 years ago. Or maybe he just repeated himself in a new time period with new actors. I can’t speculate further without infringing on a talented moviemaker’s catalog of crime capers.

John Dillinger, “public enemy No. 1” as J. Edgar Hoover called him, was a criminal of principle who outshined his contemporaries and brought the entire federal government — or was it the Mafia? — crashing down on him. Here he’s played uncannily by Johnny Depp, who gives him more humanity than a criminal and murderer deserves, but it is that humanity that allow Mann’s movies their unique edge. Depp, and Mann's screenwriting (along with Ronan Bennett and Ann Biderman), never attempt to explain Dillinger, the man or the myth. They just present him, factually, unblinkingly.

The film follows Dillinger’s rise in the 1930s from ex-con to the folk hero of crime lore, betrayed and gunned down on the sidewalk outside Chicago’s Biograph Theater, where his last moments alive were spent watching Clark Gable in Manhattan Melodrama. Yes, that’s the destination of Public Enemies, but it’s not the route.

In scenes of daring bank robberies, armed shoot-outs with Thompsons clucking away and high-speed chases in Model A Fords, Dillinger is shown as a loyal alpha male slugging men for their rude behavior, demanding love from his latest flame (Marion Cotillard) and forcing the mobs’ hand when he brings a reconstituted FBI and its crimestopping G-Men sweeping through the Midwest looking for trophies for Hoover’s mantle. Dillinger may have been a brute, but Depp plays him as a lover and a fighter, and a man deeply focused on beating the system. Of course, he’s wealthy beyond his imagination, but it’s not satisfying because money alone isn’t proof of victory.


The film shares with us Dillinger’s biggest flaw: his friends. “Baby Face” Nelson, “Pretty Boy” Floyd and Capone associate Frank Nitti, these were the men that would eventually contribute to his ultimate demise, if not directly than from the heat brought in from Washington, D.C, where the FBI had a third of its operating budget designated for Dillinger’s capture or death. Also, Dillinger never stopped robbing people, which couldn’t have helped his wanted status. At one point in the film, Dillinger strolls into the FBI's Chicago field office, where they have a wing designated to his capture. He peruses through the cluster of desks admiring the work being done to track him down, and then even exchanges words with men who were supposed to know Dillinger better than their own wives. Apparently this really happened.

Investigating Dillinger's crimes is FBI agent Melvin Purvis (Christian Bale), who was later erased from bureau history by a vendetta-prone Hoover, that weasel. Bale, whose single-note performance grows very thin here, never seems Depp’s equal and the FBI scenes droop because of it — although one interrogation sequence is superbly acted. For once I would have preferred that Mann stuck exclusively with the criminals rather than balancing a story across two polarized sides. One actor, Stephen Lang, plays an older FBI agent who has the best, and last line, in the movie in a jailhouse interview with Dillinger’s girlfriend. After Lang’s big scene ended I was picturing him in the Purvis role and admiring the potential improvements. For once, Bale was all wrong here.

Exactly how accurate the events from the movie are — the prison break, the dust-up at the Little Bohemia Lodge, the set-up at the Biograph — I will let you discover with a Google search. Most of the scenes take place where they actually happened. A caution, though: The film is not the history of the facts, but a scenario of Dillinger’s potential emotions so don’t take too much stock in Mann’s revisionist Dillinger history.

Overall, this is not one of Mann’s strongest films. It’s a well-made picture, with wonderful costumes and cars, and with all of Mann’s trademarks — an inconspicuous near-ambient score, terrifying weapon effects that seem too real to be just effects, and beautiful night photography — but it’s missing the forward momentum of some of his past works. And despite the big names in the cast list, Public Enemies drags itself to a point we all know is coming outside the Biograph. And when we get there, it's all very anti-climactic considering we still don't understand Dillinger, Purvis or what drove them to this intersection. The route, in this case, wasn’t worth the trip.

Wednesday, June 24, 2009

Michael Bay = The Devil

Everyone has their adversaries. Superman had Lex Luthor. Batman had the Joker. The Duke Brothers had Boss Hogg. The Jews had Hitler. Muslims have 24 (or is it "Jack Bauer has Muslims"?).

Well, movie critics have Michael Bay. Movie fans haven't followed our lead, although they should if they had anything rattling up in their Hey-look-it's-Scooby-Doo-2-let's-buy-a-ticket brains. Someday. Someday.

Until then, I wanted to put a face on the enemy. This, my friends, is the man who will destroy film as we know it.

Transformers: Less than meets the eye

Robert Oppenheimer kept coming to mind during Transformers: Revenge of the Fallen. After bringing together the smartest minds in the world, and years of research, the scientist successfully created the first nuclear bomb. Afterward he had enough sense to realize what he’d done: “Now I become Death, the destroyer of worlds,” he famously quoted after seeing the blast.

Director Michael Bay will not have that hindsight with his new Transformers movie, which also brought together a lot of talented people with good intentions to produce a critical mass of movie so genuinely awful that we, as a people, don’t deserve the art of the cinema if we deify these transforming robots to the tune of a billion bucks or more. It’s not entertainment anymore; it’s a cruel and violent assault on our senses.


At least you get a bang for your buck, though: Transformers is like a dozen or so other movies stripped of their souls, hollowed out and mashed into this one preposterously long (two-and-a-half hours!) summer blockbuster. Transformers 2 contains everything, which is just a kinder way of saying it contains nothing at all. Exotic cars, hot babes, military gunplay, computer hackery, robots, motorcycles, action, thrills, romance, stereotypes, clichés, racist robot caricatures, inexplicable titillation on custom choppers, mechanical fire farts, dogs humping legs … all of it atomized into this inane plot about a boy and his transforming robot buddies. It all comes at you so fast and unrelenting that watching it is like having your eyeballs sandblasted with salt and red-pepper flakes.

The film wasn’t written so much as it was grown in a marketing analyst’s Petri dish, like the way bio-chemists harvest anthrax. You’ll know exactly what I mean when afterward you feel like drinking a Mountain Dew, downloading a song by Green Day (sell outs!), logging on to a Cisco Systems video chat or buying a Chevy, a GM brand that our tax dollars are keeping afloat while they goof off on movie sets. Product placement isn’t a new device at movie theaters by any stretch of the imagination, but Transformers makes it feel even dirtier than it should, like making moonshine with holy water.


I don’t dare explain a plot in fear that a black hole form around my desk and begin sucking this side of the solar system into it. Generally speaking, it’s again about Sam Witwicky (Shia LaBeouf), who has the Transformers on speed dial because, what the hell, every super-mega-ultra transforming robot forms an alliance with a powerless teenager who still hasn't got to second base with the Geekdom's reigning queen. Sam’s going off to school, which gives his mother a reason to eat pot brownies and sack the Frisbee players on the university lawn, a scene so horrible it actually stands out from the clutter.

The movie dives headfirst into a lot of Transformers mythology, none of which makes any sense even to the robots, one of whom is shocked to discover that a shard of god-cube has downloaded into Sam’s brain if only to give Sam a reason to stay in the movie. (I guess he has more of a role than Megan Fox, though, who pouts on the Web chat seductively.) Then there’s all the rules: the shard can re-animate dead robots, the shard can also kill living robots, there’s a Matrix thingy that unlocks a device, the device can only be started by the One, the One can only be found in a temple of dead robots, the temple requires magic writing to find … on and on into infinity until your brain is a soupy mush. At one point a Transformer with a pirate beard transports himself to Egypt with no explanation as to how he did it or why we hadn’t seen that specific trick before or since.

As if the plot wasn’t confusing enough, the Transformers themselves are just as perplexing. First of all, they have no shape. So when they fight it’s hard to tell who’s giving a punch and who’s receiving one. Nevermind that they all have guns on their arms, but still fight with swords. At one point five Transformers unite into one big robot to (I think) eat the Pyramids, although I’m still not sure how. And secondly, all the Transformers look alike. The good guys, the Autobots, are usually more colorful, while the bad ones, the Decepticons, are steel gray, although this rule is not usually followed consistently so good luck making sense of anything from the first chase sequences in China to the endlessly long battle in the sands on the Giza Plateau.

And speaking of locations, someone explain this to me: Sam apparently walks the two blocks between New York City and the National Air and Space Museum at the Smithsonian in Washington, D.C. in like 10 minutes. Once he’s in the Smithsonian, he walks out the back door into an airplane boneyard in Tucson, which doesn’t look at all like the Washington, D.C., area. And then he transports inexplicably to Egypt. To review, he goes from NYC to DC to Tucson to Egypt in about 15 minutes of screen time. If you can explain this without defying the natural order of things, I’ll buy your tickets to the next Transformer movies up to Part 6, or until Michael Bay is run out of town, whichever comes first.

Compounding all these visual illusions, Bay frames the action in tight close-ups and using these dizzying spin shots that rotate around scenes to show off stuff not really worth showing off. All totaled up, it’s utterly and stupendously incomprehensible. It was difficult enough to watch on the big screen I can’t even imagine how kids will be able to watch this thing on their tiny iPod screens in four months — makes me want the red-pepper flakes again.

This is director Michael Bay’s eighth movie, which, coincidentally, is also the number of films he’s probably actually seen. Had he screened even a single movie that wasn’t his own he’d learn that this is not what people want or need with their films. The movie-going public just thinks it needs it because it’s on billboards, TV and comes as a freebie with their combo meal. We can have talking transforming robots, but we must also have coherent plots, characters that are important to those plots, and images that are more than visual static.

What Bay’s done is taken a line of Hasbro toys and injected less life into their contorting bodies than the children that were playing with them in sand boxes back when Reagan was president. If that's an achievement then I refer back to my original suggestion: we, the artless hacks called humans, no longer have a right to contribute to the cinema and should abandon it until we can prove ourself worthy again.